My Everythings

Patiently waiting… it’s been 35 weeks and 3 days or 248 days OR 8 months 3 weeks and 3 days, however you’d like to look at it (clearly I have too much time on my hands because I look at it each and every way), thus far since I got pregnant.  I’ve seen myself change in SO many ways since that day and I know more change is to come. I have exactly 32 days to go until the estimated D day and let me tell you… in this heat, it can’t come soon enough! I think Jason might say otherwise if you asked him. He has days where he is so excited and others where he is a little ball of anxiety. On Saturday night he stopped me no less than 5 times as we were walking to/from somehwere just to say “Can you believe we are going to be parents???” It really is VERY cute =)

It’s such an amazing feeling to know that I am going to bring a life into this world soon.  Being pregnant has given me a stronger sense of femininity and it’s a very empowering feeling to create and nurture a life. The female body is an AMAZING thing and it’s crazy to watch your body grow and change to accomodate this little life. I have to admit, it hasn’t been easy gaining all this weight but I know she will be worth every single ounce.

I feel like we’ve done everything we can to get prepared for her arrival. The room is just about finished… it’s really only lacking a blackout curtain, we have everything we need for her immediate care. The hospital bag is packed and ready to go. Carseat is installed… you name it and we’ve pretty much got it set up, put together, batteries installed… I almost feel like the more I get things ready the better prepared I am. And thats a funny statement to me because I know it’s all a mind game. There is NOTHING on this earth that will prepare me for what is to come but in the mean time I’m going to live in my happy little world of last minute preparations and daydreams.

As of today I have 11 working days until my maternity leave starts. That can’t come quick enough, either! I am in full on nesting mode and every moment spent at work is a moment that I could have been home cleaning my house from top to bottom, reorganizing Elle’s clothes and buying more stuff I probably don’t need… it’s never ending!

I know  a lot of other girls who are pregnant at the moment as well… Some of them ahead of me and some just just behind me. The first woman in line gave birth to her little boy just over a week ago. The next in line is two weeks out from her due date… the woman after her is just two days ahead of me which means it will be a race to the finish for us. We are actually delivering at the same hospital so it would be pretty cool if we were there together. We have all been pregnant together for so long now it’s strange that we are almost to the end and starting a whole new journey together. One by one I am slowly getting closer to the front of the line. I am so excited and antsy (ok ok and a little bit nervous too) I can hardly stand it!

I’m starting to think I should have titled this “Impatiently Waiting”.

This song pretty much sums up how I feel. =)